Help please!

Okay, so it's like 1:45 pm and I haven't a clue what to make for dinner? Any thoughts? It has to be ready by 5 pm when Cody gets home. I'm at that prego point where I'm hungry all the time but nothing sounds good so it's tough deciding what to make. What are you making tonight? Send your ideas my way, we're desperate!

Surprise!

Well since the cat is mostly out of the bag (in other words Jocelyn is telling everyone I haven't personally gotten around to telling) I guess it's time to post the good news. So....we're gonna have another baby!!! (I feel like screaming Aaaggghhh, Yeah, Uh-oh, Wah-hoo, Oh Dear, and Yippee! all at the same time.) Truthfully when I found out I was mostly terrified, worried, and anxious. But now I am starting to realize that Heavenly Father has brought us this baby and this opportunity for a wise purpose in Him, and even though I feel overwhelmed and can't really understand why me and why now, none of that really matters. We're having a baby! Another sweet little bundle to love and cherish. I think that babies are always a blessing, and I am sure this one will be for our little (or not so little these days) family.

Our baby is due Friday, March 5, 2010 (but I always go a week early so maybe the end of February) so that means I am almost 14 weeks! In a couple weeks we find out if it's a boy or girl.

We have so much to tell you!

Our blog is currently being updated... visit again soon! (Like Angela soon, a few days to a week, not like five minutes.) Ü

Please, Please pray for Bridger Smith's family. I would like to fast tomorrow if anyone would be interested in joining me. May the Lord bless them and carry them through their trials!

Heart Cath

So I happen to have a minute here at Primary's today for a quick update. Everything has been going pretty well with Ben, I think any way. Last night though we got a call from the transplant doc saying she has reviewed all of his echos from the last month and they think he is in rejection! (Aaaggghhh!!!) So here we are at Primary's doing an emergency heart catheterization and biopsy to know for sure what is going on with him. Such a bummer because he seems to be doing so well at home. But often by the time they show symptoms it is may be pretty advanced. He has been back for over two hours and they are just starting because it took so long to get all the lines placed. Say a prayer and wish us luck-- we'll try to update when we have some details.

P.S. Oh and Jocey was in the hospital a lot last week for tests because she has a really bad kidney infection so please pray for her too.

P.P.S. Aimee is great--hearty and healthy-- but she could use a prayer too 'cause life's been way crazy lately...again! Ü

Until next time...

So we've been crazy busy the last two weeks and actually we are still right in the middle of another crazy two weeks. We did, with an enormous amount of help from family and a few friends, get our new home painted, cleaned, lawn mowed, bugs sprayed and everything moved. So now we are happily unpacking the loads of boxes, wondering how we ever fit this much in to our little three bed apartment, and still feeling pretty overwhelmed by it all (sealing the deal with our VA loan has been a nightmare this time and we haven't even closed yet!) but it's okay because when the dust settles it will all be worth it.

The girls are already soooo much happier and I think Ben is too. It is like a dark cloud has been lifted off our family and we are so ready to start living the rest of our lives. The Lord has truly blessed us. Ben's health has actually been remarkably well lately and we look forward in the next few months to being able to have a little more freedom to have visitors and take him out, slowly of course. He is going in for surgery in the next week and a half to have a G-tube placed in his stomach which hopefully will help his feeding struggles a little.

Unfortunately we don't have the internet hooked up at our new home yet (not sure when or if we will) so I don't know how soon I'll be able to post again. I'll really miss being able to check up on all my buds and seeing what is happening in your lives. So everyone out there remember that I won't be checking up on you and seeing all your cute pictures so you'll have to call me and let me know what is happening. And even though we've moved a little further away, don't be a stranger, it really isn't that far and you sort of get used to the brine shrimp smell after a while!

Over and Out...Ü

Look how cute our neice Taylor is with her very first birthday cake. Funny how all kids seem to know just what to do with it! She has this cute expression with her hand raised up like she conquered it or something. Darling! Thanks Amanda for sharing the picture with me. Looks like a great party! Happy Birthday Taylor!

Snoozing


Watching Aimee


Bedtime Story


Examining the Loot


In Cognito


Our Diva


Best Buds


A Good Stretch


Cute


Sweet Dreams

Lots of random thoughts I've had lately...

--feeling sad that we drove by our old house the other day and all of the flowers we'd planted are dead
--my "Make Life Easier" list which I estimate will, when put into effect, do as the name suggests
--and while I was list-making I also made a "Get Healthier" list too, hopefully it will precipitate astounding results
--feeling sorta depressed living in "The Cave" and being so confined here with Ben and so anxious to move to a place with lots of light
--so happy that so many of our friends babies are doing so well, but so worried about those sweet little ones that struggle and so sad for those that have gone Home
--the endless "Balance in all things"
--noticing that my nails are narly and need more regular attention; unless I want to grow them out to compete in the Guiness Records
--trying to define my role with regards to family income, not getting overwhelmed by doctor bills and allowing the Lord to provide
--realizing that some of my unrealistic dreams may never become a reality, making new dreams and learning to make the dreams of my husband as important to me as mine are
--enjoying the birds singing outside
--trying to smile when I'm angry and laugh when I'm sad
--missing people who've passed on; one in particular
--learning to not be so rediculously nazi about having a tidy/organized home. Important? Yes. The end of life as we know it? No.
--realizing that while I like to think of myself as "all grown up" as circumstances and my body shape would suggest, I am still in many ways the child I was--so in need of love and acceptance and forgiveness from others, still making silly mistakes and generally making myself look rediculous a good share of the time
--attempting to develop two personality traits that I could benefit from-- listening more, and talking less and assuming the best about everyone
--wondering when was the last time I put Jet Dry in the dishwasher
--keeping all of Ben's medicines straight
--feeling horrible for not having memorized Aimee's dance for recital so I can help her practice
--trying to remember to water my dying plants
--feeling nervous to make new friends in a new ward and neighborhood-- will they like me? I'm kind of a dork!
--feeling proud of the yummy rolls I made the other day, regardless of the mess it caused
--loving Ben's expressive smile and laugh
--wondering why Jocelyn's face looks so grown up and all Aimee talks about is lipstick, jewelry and gum

A combined project for Dr. Hawkins

Thanks Christina for sending me the following info.

"Kim Simon who is a nurse at PCMC (and mom to Cole who is also a member of IHH) is working with Dr. Janet Harnsberger (who has a son that has HLHS that is now in his 20's) in putting together a "Thank You" project for Dr. Hawkins. They are asking that if you want to be involved please send a 4X6 picture of your child along with a paragraph of "Thanks". The photo and paragraph can be sent to Kim's email address at kks19@msn.com."

Everyone, let's contribute to this combined project and I know it will turn out great!