Lots of random thoughts I've had lately...

--feeling sad that we drove by our old house the other day and all of the flowers we'd planted are dead
--my "Make Life Easier" list which I estimate will, when put into effect, do as the name suggests
--and while I was list-making I also made a "Get Healthier" list too, hopefully it will precipitate astounding results
--feeling sorta depressed living in "The Cave" and being so confined here with Ben and so anxious to move to a place with lots of light
--so happy that so many of our friends babies are doing so well, but so worried about those sweet little ones that struggle and so sad for those that have gone Home
--the endless "Balance in all things"
--noticing that my nails are narly and need more regular attention; unless I want to grow them out to compete in the Guiness Records
--trying to define my role with regards to family income, not getting overwhelmed by doctor bills and allowing the Lord to provide
--realizing that some of my unrealistic dreams may never become a reality, making new dreams and learning to make the dreams of my husband as important to me as mine are
--enjoying the birds singing outside
--trying to smile when I'm angry and laugh when I'm sad
--missing people who've passed on; one in particular
--learning to not be so rediculously nazi about having a tidy/organized home. Important? Yes. The end of life as we know it? No.
--realizing that while I like to think of myself as "all grown up" as circumstances and my body shape would suggest, I am still in many ways the child I was--so in need of love and acceptance and forgiveness from others, still making silly mistakes and generally making myself look rediculous a good share of the time
--attempting to develop two personality traits that I could benefit from-- listening more, and talking less and assuming the best about everyone
--wondering when was the last time I put Jet Dry in the dishwasher
--keeping all of Ben's medicines straight
--feeling horrible for not having memorized Aimee's dance for recital so I can help her practice
--trying to remember to water my dying plants
--feeling nervous to make new friends in a new ward and neighborhood-- will they like me? I'm kind of a dork!
--feeling proud of the yummy rolls I made the other day, regardless of the mess it caused
--loving Ben's expressive smile and laugh
--wondering why Jocelyn's face looks so grown up and all Aimee talks about is lipstick, jewelry and gum